yo

I spoke with mother it made me
feel better to cry on the phone
but you're still her daughter
and that's a dilemma. She said
she doesn't know you quite like
she used to one week ago.

All I've Ever Known is Hurt

"I am now about to make the great adventure. I cannot endure this agonizing pain any longer. It is all over my body. Neither can I face the impending blindness. I pray the Lord my soul to take. Amen."

Clara Blandick

I tried my best to forget you,
it's hard to forget forever.
I'll name a kite after you
and let it float into some
power lines. This might give
me closure, this might kill
me too.

sad

When I think of you I want to explode. You are
a belly full of stardust, devouring constellations
at will. This makes me wish I had a time machine.
You always taste the same but the day taste different.
Some love lasts forever. Some love. I burned your
name into my arm with fire. For what?
A weight hits me hard. Philadelphia never
meant shit to me until you swallowed it
whole. I am ready to leave. I am ready to
say goodbye. I am ready to love again.

karen

fell asleep with my glasses
on so I could see in my dreams
made ammends with my friends,
lovers, companions and demons

problems are a vast wave of
cold chills and indifference

my hands share no kinship
my arms are just misprints
my skin is but a costume
my mind is just a wishlist

of robots, machines,
computers, dead diabetics

abortion support groups
death through anesthetics

set the room to autopilot
it was a
downward
spiral of

cold prison floors
babies first steps
backyard cartwheels
half broken necks

mothers warm milk
her breasts could ferment
I am still just a twelve years old
pulling pills from the vents






"take me for a walk through your mind"

river hands

im sinking
faster, deeper
into a life hole

people are
like stones

sometimes

skip em
on a pretty
lake

they settle

into the
silt, just
like me

additional generic cop compliment 6/22/09

old salt
expert navigator
favors
pirouette on cue
dingy stinkin mud puddle
thats how my freaking day was

I'm a fan of
bible days
wrong hat
stupid squirrel
theres worst things than nicotine

can the irish crap
fido mccokefein
a little more shut the hell up
awkward laugh

channel snake bite
ugly ugly ugly interesting 100%
me mind on fire
no wonder people do drugs

I whipped this speed freaks ass at horse shoes today
the explanation for my crush on Jenny Lewis
I think everyone could benefit from a singing puppet

head cold

there is
a sound in
my head
like
squealing
brakes

I am it's
slave,
expecting
delays,
awaiting conclusion

humphrey bogarted me

i cant sleep
it will be april fifth
for ten more minutes

this poem looks ugly on the page
like a stray dog scimpering across
highway 76
like my fifth grade school picture
green turtle neck, cowlick, stupid
smile and all

i cant sleep
it will be April sixth
in eight more minutes

tomrrow i will not conquer
the world
tomorrow i will not get married
to an asian woman
tomorrow i will not have my
first child

tomorrow i will wear sun tan
lotion
tomorrow i will make love to my
hand
and of course i will drink the
drink that many men have given
birth to
late at night
face to face with a toilet seat

tomorrow is april 6th
i hope it comes
in moderation